I have to be honest… I desperately need help.

thevioletghost:

I… Have been struggling like a lot as of late. I have been working hard since 2014 to get myself a job only to no avail after what feels like hundreds of applications I’ve filled out. There was a point I had a job but I got fired over bullshit reasons back in 2016. Those of you who know me have known this for a long time a very long time I’ve been trying hard since I graduated High School to keep it in but I’m honestly… Loosing the battle.

I continue to get these comments telling me how my stuff is good. Bout how I’m a great artist, person, whatever to be around. In truth the comments mean a lot to me they support me emotionally but…. Don’t really help much anymore. Sure the positive comments help keep me going and thinking that I may someday make good out of these skills I’ve gotten over the years but it doesn’t help when I honestly need money to do things I WANT to do. Things I need to keep myself going and continue doing what you guys all enjoy and myself. I WANT to commission artwork from other artist. I want to somehow support myself as a person I WANT to get a job but none of these things have happened and my situation keeps changing like a roller coaster.

There has been attempts good strides. At one point on my Patreon I had amassed 100 dollars… Only to watch as they stole every last dime from me and I had to pay people back… Which I still haven’t cause well obvious reasons hard to pay back people when you have no money now isn’t it?

I’ve been trying desperately to get things working to amass some kind of funding for myself so I can do things I have been wanting to do for years…. Every plan has backfired and only put me more in debt. I try and work my fingers to the bone only to get nowhere over and over and over again.I haven’t left the house to go out of town in what feels like a year and I just… This year it’s been harder than it ever has been.

Sorry to take up you guys time, sorry to be bitching like this but I just really need the help and I have no idea where else I can turn. I can’t get a job, I can’t move out of town, Hell it’s to the point I feel no one wants me around anymore. I jjust want to support myself I just want to support myself so I can stop asking my friends for things. So I can do nice things for my friends and family.  I wanna stop feeling like a leech and actually accomplish something but it’s hard to feel like I am getting anywhere when I never have any money to myself to spend on what I want or need.

I hate to ask but if you could give me a coffee on ko-fi or any advice… Any idea on where to go/what to do it will all be appreciated.To anyone who gives me advice I might not act like I appreciate it. I might not act like it means anything to me but it means the world in honesty. To anyone who gives me a coffee on kofi thank you greatly. I might not be able to pay you back for the coffee but I’ll keep going cause it’s what you want and what I want the last thing I want to do is stop.

https://ko-fi.com/thevioletghost Here’s my ko-fi if it’s needed.

This will be deleted on a later date just yeah bad day.